Aluminum

Aluminum

He's me. My inner me. Myself from within. The other me.

His name is Allen. He belives that his name meant harmony and noble. But, after a while, he started to hate that name, he started hating names starting with letter A and the meaning of his 'stupid' name, like he always said. So he picked a different one, Aluminum. I asked him, how he wants to be named, but instead of other names, he opened a chart with chemicals. He picked the chemical element of atomic number 13, a light silvery-gray metal. Aluminum. I had no problem with it, so I let him name it like this, but, it sounded a bit cold. So I call him rather Al, it's short and it's teasing him sometimes.

Just like me.

My name is Monster, or well.. this was my true name. They changed this name to Cherry, because it was too 'brutal' or- well.. I don't even remember.

Aluminum, he has multiple faces, sides, personalities and kinks. He seems mostly awkward between others, making bad decisions and mostly regrets everything. Looking like a normal, good-looking guy, there is something very- very dark within him. He's the one with the most wicked past I've ever met and created. A nightmare. A warning, threat what could happen to my outer self.

From nice and kind, and a bit choleric person, we have a madman. Crazy, ruthless and vicious machine without emotions. He will lose all his emotions, all his care. He would say things that would never leave and create an opened grinning wound, bleeding heavily in anyone's hearth. Even mine. I never mess with him. He's the source of my joy and nightmares.. he's scary. He's the fear. No one should mess with him. This is not a threat, this is a safety warning. Because I am afraid of him, it means I am afraid of myself. He broke so many hearths, he broke so many precious things.. I am not gossiping or, really talking lies about him.. but it's true. Because he's the key to my Evil, Madness, Bloodthrist and Aberration.. Aluminum is the key to the cell, with name Monster. He's the chain that keeps my old self within the darkness, avoiding all these negative and horrible mind-falls.

Aluminum stacks my sins, but he's my right hand too. I killed way too much innocent things, and this is corrupting him. Sometimes, I ask myself, am I really innocent and pure? I look like it, but, I am never sure. I am confused about it. My appearance is a bit different from Monster. I look normal. I look calm and likely similar to other people.. but, Monster. The true me, she's like a burried soul. She's hurt- but when you want to help her, she will bite and rips off your arm. Aluminum is the only one she trusts. Because she is me, and I trust Aluminum as well. Honesty, honesty is very important to me. I can be sometimes, honest too much.

I had a Dream. Dream where I open the cage of Monster and she will finally become me again. Aluminum will become the true great puppeteer he once was, and we will finish what we started long time ago. But, things are getting complicated.

Aluminum is known to be crazy paranoid madman. Creating all these creatures in front of my eyes. Such as, Jupit (Nicolas).. and, other shadowy creatures. But mostly Nicolas. Aluminum claims, it's his child, which makes sence but, the worst thing is, that, I haven't seen Nicolas for a while and.. how I saw Al, he started to transform, or just.. gain some features of Nicolas. Aluminum got surely corrupt and now when he became like this, there need to be another paranormal guide, another child of Aluminum. And I was right. I named it Lucius. It's power is was too great than Nicolas's. I just hope he won't consume me.. Together with Aluminum, since it seems his madness overgrew his mind. Personally, I think Aluminum is able to eat me up himself. I should be careful..

My own mind is a demon. But this is only the beginning, he will grew much larger, I saw it in The Dream. Belive me, I am no angel..

My mother is Alice ; I am Adam ; Jupit is Nicolas ; Lucius is my new friend:

-Welcome to the Wonderland, Friend.